Thursday, May 25, 2006

Hmmmm.....

Hmmmm..... this is actually a reposting of one of my previous posts.... somehow the recent happenings in my life seem to make sense to post this again..... to be frank this is the beginning and end of all the topics sometimes.....

Am posting this mainly bcoz one of my friends thought it was hightime he left this world..... he was a great friend, a good son, an awesome musician, a wonderful dreamer...... pity that i never got to know him for long..... he was just too young to die.... damn the brain TB, damn the doctors, damn everything..... but after i read this post i kind of felt better.... better that it might be good for him but lousy for us out here, that he is no more.....

what is death? death is destiny. it has to be bcoz death is the origin - we come from death n we go to death. life is just a moment between 2 nothingnesses, just a flight of a bird between 2 states of non being. if death is destiny, as it is, then the whole of life becomes a preparation for it- a training, a discipline in how to die rightly n how to die totally n utterly. the whole of life consists in learning how to die. but somehow a wrong conception about death has entered the humanity, the conception that death is the enemy. this is the basis of all wrong conceptions, n this is against the eternal law, the tao.

man has taken death as the enemy of life-as if death is there to destroy life, as if death is against life. if this is the conception then of course we have to fight death, n life becomes an effort to survive against death. then we r fighting against our own origin n we r fighting against our destiny. then we r fighting something that is going to happen. the whole fight is absurd bcoz death cannot be avoided. if it were something outside us, it could be avoided, but it is inside. we carry it from the very moment we r born. we start dying really when we start breathing, at the same moment. it is not right to say that death comes in the end, it has always been with us from the very beginning. it is a part of us........it is our innermost centre. it grows with us n one day it comes to a culmination........one day it comes to flowering. the day of death is not the day of death's coming, it is the flowering. death was growing within us all this time, now it has reached the peak; n once death reaches a peak we disappear back into the origin.

but ppl around have taken a wrong attitude n that wrong attitude creates struggle, fight, violence. a man who thinks that death is against life can never be non-violent. it is impossible.....a man who thinks death is against life can never be at ease, at home. that is impossible. how can u be at ease if the enemy is waiting for u any moment? it will jump on u n destroy u. how can u be non-tense when death is waiting around the corner n the shadow of death is always falling on u? it can happen any moment. how can we rest when death is there? how can we relax? the enemy wont allow us to relax.

hence the tension, the anxiety, the anguish of humanity. the more we fight with death, the more anxiety-ridden we'll become, we r bound to become. that's a natural consequence. if we fight with death we know that we r going to be defeated. how can we be happy with a life that is going to end in defeat? deep down we r certain about only one thing n that is death. in life everything is uncertain, only death is certain. there is only one cetainity n with that we have an enemity. how could be fight with certainity n still hope for uncertainities? how can we be relaxed, calm, collected? impossible........

if death is the enemy, then basically the whole of life becomes our enemy. then every moment, everywhere, the shadow falls; then in everywhere death echoes. the whole life becomes inimical, n we start fighting. once we understand that death is not the opposite of life but part of it, an intrinsic part of it, which can never be seperated from it-once we accept death as a friend, suddenly a transformation happens. n no kidding or the 'holier-than-thou' attitude here but truely a calm comes in. now there is no fight, no war, we r not fighting against anybody.....now we can be relaxed n be at home. only when death becomes a friend, life also becomes our friend. this may look paradoxical but it only appears to be that way. if death is the enemy then deep down life is also the enemy coz life leads to death.

every type of life leads to death- the poor man's life, the rich man's life, a life of success n a life of failure, the life of a wise man n the life of an ignorant one, the life of a sinner n a saint. so how can we be in love with life if we r against death? then our love is nothing but a positiveness........just a clinging. against death we cling to life understanding very well that this very life itself brings death nearer every day.

hmmmm..... anywayz have anyone of u wondered y ppl celebrate their birthdays??? its manily bcoz every birthday takes everyone a step ahead towards death n that depresses ppl..... so when friends n relatives call up with all good wishes and blessings n smiles everything negative is forgotten n they realise that its a pleasure to live out here.... :)

So THANKS A TON to all my friends who actually made my day yesterday..... I had a spectacular day guys....

10 comments:

mizarukikazaruiwazaru said...

Dear jans,
T last scene of Last samurai… Tom cruise bows down to the Japanese emperor, he is about to handover t sword of t rebel commander who died in t battle, t emperor teary eyed asks him “tell me how did he die?” to this tom cruise replies “ I will not tell u how he died, but will tell u how he lived” . Jans…there are a volley of questions bursting forth …why ..Why are u glorifying death???? it might be t eternal truth as tao said…but why even think of treating it as an enemy ??? how many of us do u think actually acknowledge t presence of death in our day to day life ?? yes, while speeding on t highway and zipping through those by lanes can be my closest brush with death every day , but t encounter with death is not like an enemy or even as a friend…more like a stranger on t road whom u r wary of while driving and he fades of your memory t moment u pass him.
Every time u set out to describe life as a transition between two sources , it gets my goat !!!! In the process of reconciling with death which is an absurdity at best, u miss out that more than death, its life which has to be celebrated. Why even think of death when we have a life time to live???? , enemy, friend all flies in t face when our day to day things keep our minds occupied. This might be at t materialistic level as u might say, but why bother ??. My best friend passed away in freakish accident, all I realized was yes I don’t know when angel death might grace my hearth, but it did not urge me to fight death but was more on the lines that he had a life to live and he could have excelled at it !!. You breath every day, that doesn mean u acknowledge it every moment, yes death is a finality and I reckon it, but by accepting it or not accepting it it , doesn make any huge difference , does it really ?? isn’t this more like an astrologist claiming that heavenly bodies influence our life, they might…but to what extent ???? Similarly…reconciling with death or fighting it tooth and nail , does it have an impact ????? yes if u are in dire strait and are fighting with t government for euthanasia…these concepts do figure in and are very much needed, but in normal life do we even need to bother ???? Hmmm… I find it paradoxical coming from you…excited to be alive and reconciling with death !!!! oxymoron ???? 

mizarukikazaruiwazaru said...

hmmm........ it was your birthday and guess most of us get into these kind of groove on that day, hmm...well people cheering us on our bday to forget that we are hurtling towards death, sounds logical to me, but yet t meaning is lost somewhere , again its another occasasion to celebrate , these meaning lost on us in totality !!

Excited 2 B Alive said...

hmmmm.... this is getting ironical.... u were saying exactly what i was saying - that death is not the enemy after all.... :)

Guess high time u start reading the posts with ur eyes wide open dileep :)

n btw.... death is definitely not the end.... its rather the beginning!! so still.... EXCITED TO BE ALIVE

Pushan Sikdar said...
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Pushan Sikdar said...

gr8 blog..
excited to be alive!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bunky Jumping Pundit said...

jan's,

i really liked the way u have articulated ur thought process but, the point being death is a natural process.. and i know why u wrote this post...u have written it with "death" as the point of reference and seen the world through it.. jus change the point of reference to life and see how beautiful everything would look..evry b day ll take u away from death and u ll realise how many people care for u.... thats what keeps us going.. when u have life as point of reference..then death is just a process in the material world...

mizarukikazaruiwazaru said...

hey jans...hehe..well with all t hyperbole and jazz...think whatever i wanted to say was summed up by pundit in one paragraph !!!!

Excited 2 B Alive said...

@ DMW
Hey thanks for that :)

@ BJP & mizaruk...
I accept u make a point out there n i guess 'excited to be alive' is the essence of that!!
but guess what i was trying to put fwd out there was not to give a negative conotation to death... which means death is also a 'part' of life. which means death could be as beautiful as life....
u guys r still trying to ignore death but what i say is glorify both rather than sticking to one point of view....
after all if u know about heat then u should know about cold as well... both of them could be extremes but both of them burn u, if u know what i say.....
so this is tao... look at everything as they r n dont lose the balance by going to one extreme n sticking there :)

mizarukikazaruiwazaru said...

jans...heat and cold isn t right analogy...we can grapple with the subjective definiton of heat / cold as our senses percieve them...but what about death??? pray temme ...how do i go experiencing it so as to balance my opinion about life and death ??? well ...for that matter of fact there are so many things which have to be considered according to ur logic ( to balance out and not to stick to any extremes)...string theory speaks of more than 11 dimensions...according to metaphysics ..the existence of t world as our conciousness percieves it, is in itself a huge question mark ...so temme jans...how many concepts,be it physics ,metapphysics or spiritual do we need to strike a balance with ?? (hehe...just trying to bug u with a new line of argument.. :)

Excited 2 B Alive said...

hey.... do u think our senses dont percieve life n death??? ofcourse they do.... its matter of feeling life that makes one realise that they r living...
n btw.... science doesnt come in when what we r talkin about is more or less paradoxical than pure logic... i agree logic can explain things but it fails to expalin many things as well...