Thursday, May 25, 2006

Hmmmm.....

Hmmmm..... this is actually a reposting of one of my previous posts.... somehow the recent happenings in my life seem to make sense to post this again..... to be frank this is the beginning and end of all the topics sometimes.....

Am posting this mainly bcoz one of my friends thought it was hightime he left this world..... he was a great friend, a good son, an awesome musician, a wonderful dreamer...... pity that i never got to know him for long..... he was just too young to die.... damn the brain TB, damn the doctors, damn everything..... but after i read this post i kind of felt better.... better that it might be good for him but lousy for us out here, that he is no more.....

what is death? death is destiny. it has to be bcoz death is the origin - we come from death n we go to death. life is just a moment between 2 nothingnesses, just a flight of a bird between 2 states of non being. if death is destiny, as it is, then the whole of life becomes a preparation for it- a training, a discipline in how to die rightly n how to die totally n utterly. the whole of life consists in learning how to die. but somehow a wrong conception about death has entered the humanity, the conception that death is the enemy. this is the basis of all wrong conceptions, n this is against the eternal law, the tao.

man has taken death as the enemy of life-as if death is there to destroy life, as if death is against life. if this is the conception then of course we have to fight death, n life becomes an effort to survive against death. then we r fighting against our own origin n we r fighting against our destiny. then we r fighting something that is going to happen. the whole fight is absurd bcoz death cannot be avoided. if it were something outside us, it could be avoided, but it is inside. we carry it from the very moment we r born. we start dying really when we start breathing, at the same moment. it is not right to say that death comes in the end, it has always been with us from the very beginning. it is a part of us........it is our innermost centre. it grows with us n one day it comes to a culmination........one day it comes to flowering. the day of death is not the day of death's coming, it is the flowering. death was growing within us all this time, now it has reached the peak; n once death reaches a peak we disappear back into the origin.

but ppl around have taken a wrong attitude n that wrong attitude creates struggle, fight, violence. a man who thinks that death is against life can never be non-violent. it is impossible.....a man who thinks death is against life can never be at ease, at home. that is impossible. how can u be at ease if the enemy is waiting for u any moment? it will jump on u n destroy u. how can u be non-tense when death is waiting around the corner n the shadow of death is always falling on u? it can happen any moment. how can we rest when death is there? how can we relax? the enemy wont allow us to relax.

hence the tension, the anxiety, the anguish of humanity. the more we fight with death, the more anxiety-ridden we'll become, we r bound to become. that's a natural consequence. if we fight with death we know that we r going to be defeated. how can we be happy with a life that is going to end in defeat? deep down we r certain about only one thing n that is death. in life everything is uncertain, only death is certain. there is only one cetainity n with that we have an enemity. how could be fight with certainity n still hope for uncertainities? how can we be relaxed, calm, collected? impossible........

if death is the enemy, then basically the whole of life becomes our enemy. then every moment, everywhere, the shadow falls; then in everywhere death echoes. the whole life becomes inimical, n we start fighting. once we understand that death is not the opposite of life but part of it, an intrinsic part of it, which can never be seperated from it-once we accept death as a friend, suddenly a transformation happens. n no kidding or the 'holier-than-thou' attitude here but truely a calm comes in. now there is no fight, no war, we r not fighting against anybody.....now we can be relaxed n be at home. only when death becomes a friend, life also becomes our friend. this may look paradoxical but it only appears to be that way. if death is the enemy then deep down life is also the enemy coz life leads to death.

every type of life leads to death- the poor man's life, the rich man's life, a life of success n a life of failure, the life of a wise man n the life of an ignorant one, the life of a sinner n a saint. so how can we be in love with life if we r against death? then our love is nothing but a positiveness........just a clinging. against death we cling to life understanding very well that this very life itself brings death nearer every day.

hmmmm..... anywayz have anyone of u wondered y ppl celebrate their birthdays??? its manily bcoz every birthday takes everyone a step ahead towards death n that depresses ppl..... so when friends n relatives call up with all good wishes and blessings n smiles everything negative is forgotten n they realise that its a pleasure to live out here.... :)

So THANKS A TON to all my friends who actually made my day yesterday..... I had a spectacular day guys....

Monday, May 15, 2006

The Only time when success comes before work is in the DICTIONARY

Friday, May 12, 2006

i know....


I know the day will come

When my sight of this world shall be lost.

Life will take its leave in silence,

Drawing the last curtain before my eyes.

Yet stars will still shine at night,

And mornings rise as before,

And hours will still heave like sea waves,

Casting up pleasures and pains.

When i think of this end of my moments

The barrier of the moment breaks,

And i see by the light of death

Your world with its careless treasures.

Rare is its meanest lives,

Rare is its lowliest seat.

Things that i longed for in vain,

And things that i got - let them pass.

Let me but truly possess

The things that i ever spurned and overlooked.

- Rabindranath Tagore

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

listen.......... i just TAGGED u!!!

Wanna know one of the best parts about blogging???? its the tag part........ just write some crap n u could get off the hook by making others pour out theirs about the same topic in their blogs..... does that sound interesting enough??? YES??? then happy reading n dont forget that U r tagged now!!! hey n if u r shaking ur head left to right having a smug smile on ur face saying "NOPE.... i find it highly boring...." i can understand...... boredom is a symptom of wierdity.... :P

ok fine....... enough of the intro n let us get down to business..... so this TAG is gonna be all about the MOST embarrassing moment in ur life.... so here we go....

It was early feb and the weather was warm and pleasent.... The day began with a light shower from the skies and alls fine.... The day in college was smooth and not everyone were exactly in the mood for one more day of college.... we just wanted to bunk in at home.... but anywayz the day went on placid n i woke up with a start when i heard a loud ring far away...... yes, it was the bell for break..... 'management' was the last hour before break n no wonder i had slopped down on my chair for a peaceful, dreamless sleep....

In college we always used to have a string of announcements right before we broke for lunch.... It used to be about all the club meetings n events n mostly everything that was happening n things that were yet to happen in college.....

*TING TONG* "Good afternoon. Students who belong to the fine arts club are kindly requested to assemble outside the CC block for an important meeting. The volunteers from NSS have come out with beautiful hand made products. Please have a look at them in the NCC ground. All commerce students who had participated in the republic day function are kindly requested to assemble outside the B block for a meting. We are proud to (blah blah n more blah) Have a nice day ........" *TING TONG*

The announcements were going on n on the last anouncement caught my ears coz i had participated in one of the musical shows in the republic day..... It was impossible to have a relaxed lunch with my friends coz that would be cutting it too fine to make it on time for the meeting.... The good part was, a few of my other friends also had to go for the same meeting for various other reasons..... so we just took our lunch boxes in hand n went to the B block.

We had to wait in a huge class room with big, beautiful french windows all around the room n a very high ceiling. It was the oldest building in the college which was built somewhere before 100 years. The meeting was to appreciate us about our hard work for the success of the function n we were given a small pouch full of goodies by our HOD....our break time was also over by the time we could get over with our meetings.... We just dragged our legs to our own block coz we knew we could afford to go a few minutes late for class....

By the time we walked in to the class, our HOD was saying something to the class..... I was actually kind of shocked to find out that this was some extraordinary occassion where she had just graced our classroom for a visit n that too reached it before we did.

We excused ourselves n got inside the classroom when she just stopped us half way through n demanded where we went before we entered the class room.... I found it highly inconceivable to be put forth to such a question coz i was sure she knew where we came from. So i obviously told her we just finished the meeting for the republic day. But all through the conversation i had this long ovel '0' on my face.... but anywayz she let us go back to our seats....

When i enquired i found out that one of our classmates' mobile phone had been stolen during the break.... it was apalling to hear that they thought the thief was from our class..... So after a long lecture in vain to find out the thief, they decided to search all our bags n pocket before we left our class.... we used to sit somewhere near the last row so our turn was at the end.... we were standing in a que n atlast my turn came....

OMG.... what all came out from my bag..... mostly all 'kuppai' n other than that a few M&B books..... so while i was just looking at all the contents scattered out of my bag i felt something crawling on my head.... when i turned back i realised that one of my teachers were actually checking my hair coz they thought it was so dense n curly that it could be a good hide out to keep stolen things...... :((((((((((( waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ when some girls realised what was going on, all of us had a good laugh!!!!

P.S: The next yr one of my juniors enquired to me whether there was any girl in our college who hid some kind of a photo in her hair n got caught!!! That was one time i didnt know whether to laugh or cry! :((

So time for personal tagging, i Tag pundit, abhay, saint, dileep n G3

happy tagging :)