Monday, February 27, 2006

what the heck....

the best part of life is to be BUSY coz we have only 2 options left...

either be busy living or busy dieing!!

n both means the same.... it depends on us to decide what we opt for....

So all this melodrama was actually for putting forward the simple n normal but the truely exciting fact that i was busy the whole of the last month (WOW)... it just feels great to be back in form where some kind of an activity or the other goes on in my life.... n not much of wasting time.... YAHOOOOOOO!! :D

its so much fun to feel somewhere near to being useful again.... instead of just sitting in the office for the heck of it n then going back home n doing the nomal things... its fun to be occupied.... but still waiting for things to come up in the office where there will atleast be a chance to learn much more.... talking about learning.... its such an interesting thing where it is the first step in the vicious circle of 'change'..... learning leads to growth n growth is nice but the growing part.... i.e., the "ing" part is what gives the pain...

last month it was full on shows n recordings n marriages n meets n trips n to put it all in a nut shell... FULL OF LIFE.... somehow it felt like as if it was an exotic experience though its as normal as the day.... the last few months were the most depressing in the whole of my life coz there was a lack of zest... lack of activity.... lack of positive life energy!!!

at the moment am so happy but hope this lasts.... i wanna work hard n party hard for that kind of good work....

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Missing people

Sometimes its so easy to fight... so easy to get hurt... n its simpler to hurt the other person in the process also... everything is highly simple during this process... everyone has their own reasons n everyone is justified. n no one realises that in a fight the fault is never 100% on just one person... the ration might vary but still no one is ever 100% right all the time.

fights r painful... fights hurt... sometimes its arguements n sometimes its just staying mum... but still the hurt remains... but the hurt is all about missing those people we were close to... for all the things that happened n y it happened at all..

But in all these years its hard not to notice that the minute we start getting close to people the relationship starts to hurt... arguements n fights r so inevitable n well.... sometimes any kind of a relationship gets too boring without a fight...being all mushy, nice n sweet to one another is after all not all that great!! there needs to be some spice...

but the spice obviously leads to the torture of missing those people sometimes... the best part of a fight is to just talk it out.... 99% it happens but the rest 1% sometimes misses out... Y no one knows... everyone has their own reasons....

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Relationships..

I need a relationship in which I dont have to keep explaining myself. Nothing is more tiring in life than having to constantly explain urself. Infact, emotional tiredness drains u far more than physical tiredness. So, the search is for that one relationship in which i can enjoy the freedom of trust, where i dont have to explain everything about me.

I need a relationship in which I wont be held against myself. I have my strengths n i have my weaknesses. I have my shortcomings. The search is for that one relationship in which my lesser side will not be provoked n instigated constantly. I want someone who will always relate to my better side. I want that one relationship in which my positives will always be brought to the surface.

I need a relationship in which my today is not viewed with the mistakes i made yesterday. I need a relationship where my tomorrow's misery isnt already confirmed, for ive made a mistake today. As iam human... im bound to err occasionally... in fact, every now n then. I want someone who wont maintain a database of my mistakes. The search is for that relationship where yesterday's fight doesnt intrude into today's intimacy, where yesterday's arguement doesnt halt todays communication... where yesterday was over yesterday.

I need a relationship in which it isnt me who has to take the initiative all the time. I need a relationship where i can afford to be transperent. I need a relationship in which i dont have to alter my likes n dislikes in order to gain n retain the relationship. I need a relationship in which my self-image is not scratched. I need a relationship in which iam not asked to be anyone other than who iam... what iam. I need a relationship in which i feel completely myself... even more than when iam with my own self.

I need that one relationship in which i feel as though iam once again in my mother's womb... A relationship in which my heart always feels... just born.

If u already have one such relationship... plz go down on ur knees in gratitude, for there cannot be a greater gift from life. Such a relationship is life's greatest gift.

If u dont have one, despair not. Didnt he say from the mountain top- "Do unto others what u want others do unto u?" Can we be that one to someone else? Let's gift ourselves into someone's life. Let's love someone so completely that we make ourselves worthy of being someone's greatest gift.. :)

Thursday, February 02, 2006

FIRE

SPACE IN RSHIP : Kahlil Gibran said, "...let there be spaces in ur togetherness... stand together yet not too near together, for the pillars of the temple stand apart, and the oak tree n the cypress grow not in each other's shadow." Fire epitomises this. When u respect the space of fire - u r close enough n yet not barging into its space, it provides the needed warmth. However, when u barge into its space, it burns u. In the name of love n affection, when a rship becomes claustrophobic... it begins to hurt the rship. Demand respect for ur space. Respect the space of the other. Let us dance together, still moving individually.

INTENSITY : Fire embodies intensity... there is nothing dull about fire... it is impossible to overlook the presence of fire. Intensity implies... no half-hearted measure. Intensity is the ability to give urself in total to whateve u do. To live life in totality is to live every moment of life intensely.

ENTHUSIASM : Enthusiasm comes from the greek words - enthos-theos, meaning spirit within. Nothing great has been achieved without enthusiasm... the measure of your achievement depends on the spirit of ur involvement... ur enthusiasm for what u pursue n the enthusiasm with which u pursue it. Aposter in a personnel manager's cabin read, "If u r not fired with enthusiasm, u will be fired with enthusiasm." Fire, in the way it dances as it burns, demonstrates the significance of living every moment with enthusiasm.

LOOK UP : Fire always burns upwards. Irrespective of the direction in which a fire is lit, the flames always go upwards. Motivational speakers scream, "If the outlook is not good, try the up look." I have experientially learnt - 'If u can look up, u can get up'.

TRANSFORMATION : Everything in its presence is transformed. Fire not only dispels darkness with light but also transforms the very nature of things that remain in its presence long enough. Anything that has to be petrified is placed in the presence of fire long enough. Shall we become such ppl that in our presence ppl feel purified n trasnformed?

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Eat an apple a day, keep the doctor away!

n if the doctor is cute, keep the apple away!!?? :)